For the last few days, I haven't felt as stressed out or mopey. It seems something vital in my depression cycle is missing. Like, I can feel the trigger to get depressed, but it never actually happens. There seems to be some kind of support or missing piece being filled in. I don't know if this is some kind of precursor to a psychosis, or a warning, or what. There has always been a kind of "man... not again" feeling in my head, especially for the last few years, but for the last few days, it's like my depression just can't get motivated.
I have no idea why.
I wonder if it's all the tapes?
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