I slept a lot after that last entry. I kept feeling this weird lightness, like part of me was missing, but not in a figurative or poetic sense; it feels real like a physical part of me is gone. I don't think he ever was part of my psychic being or whatever, if such things even exist. It almost seems like I have lost one of my 5 senses, and I won't claim that Artoo was some witch's familiar or anything like that (roll 2d4), but I feel I have gone blind somewhere. I almost feel like I have lost an arm or some other heavy part of me. I feel light and disoriented, like some heavy anchor I was used to is now gone, and I don't know where to go. My mind keeps drifting like flotsam after a storm.
Sorry if I sound loopy. This happened once before, when another cat I was close to had died. I am just recording this for future reference.