But it also gave me a renewed vigor and the NaNoWriMo morale boost is still pretty powerful. I think what I should do is try another attempt at the Tony Bumper story, but try some new angles, based on what I learned from the NaNoWriMo exercise as well as what I learned about myself in Sweden. The first thing is I have to let go of what I have written before. Not totally let go, but mostly let go. I will start from the beginning all over again, and just write like a madman. If the story follows the path of the original story, so be it. Bad parts will be edited on the first repass, and grooming will commence in September. But I have to let my mind solve the puzzles by itself and trust that an end will come when it's ready. I can hope the end is the same, and I really want it to be because the theme in the story is about the change from passive resistance to active participation. Tony starts off as a sheltered child, under the illusion of independence and assumptions of how the world works. His growth through the story is pretty essential to discover that not everything is as it seems, and that the journey from boy to man requires a self confidence to do the right thing at all costs.
I'd like to set aside August, because I think MSD does not expect me to go with them to GenCon this year, if they are even going. September is out because of TCEP, and I'd like October off to get ready for NaNoWriMo in November. December is the holidays.